Inspired ruminations

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My intention with this space is to dedicate it to matters that inspire me and are close to my heart. Hopefully others will find it meaningful as well.

Late night musings

lifePosted by Arandjel Tue, February 20, 2018 05:58:06
I'm definitely a night owl. Always been. I appreciate the serenity of the witching hours. It's a great time to meditate and introspect. The connection to the divine appears stronger. There is a sense of clarity. Among the things I was contemplating tonight, was what all I should include in this blog. Or rather how personal I'll allow myself to be. Writing about my experiences could possibly help somebody else, or at the very least amuse them. However there is always the risk of oversharing, which is just awkward - and a lot tacky. I also feel that I want to share my passions, maybe do an occasional book review. The problem is that I rarely if ever read spiritual literature. Does that matter? The last book I finished was Roxane Gay's "Bad Feminist", in many ways a brilliant book. Her writing has helped me deal with some recent rough patches. Following "Bad Feminist" I started reading Tobias Wolff's "In the Garden of the North American Martyrs", which is mesmerizing in it's portrayal of human characters and their fates. I appreciate well written books, and studied literature at the university for while. A degree in media and communication is what I ended up with, because I've had a passion for writing since an early age. Perhaps it's karmical. I do believe in reincarnation, but I'm not convinced we can access memories from past lives. Or maybe we all co-exist simultaneously in a multi-dimensional universe. But what can we really tell for sure about our myriad of incarnations? I'm a bit pragmatical like that, and prefer to read science over spiritual magazines. The later tend to stick to a cliche of what spirituality is, but then there's so few of them. My favorite weekly is The New Yorker. I also enjoy the Paris Review occasionally. Both are literary publications. It brings me back to where I started, so it could be a sign: for me to start sharing my writing. In the meanwhile, I'll be back with a meditation - most likely tomorrow. Eventually I'll muster enough courage to record an audio of it...

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Reading yourself

psychicPosted by Arandjel Fri, February 16, 2018 05:52:46
I can't believe how fast time flies: here we are rapidly heading towards the end of February. It's been almost a month since my previous past, even though it feels like it was published yesterday. What is it they say...time is just a human construct? It's certainly true when it comes to readings, where time is experienced as fluid rather than linear. Defining an exact time-frame can for that reason get a bit tricky. Even more precarious is reading for oneself. No matter how skilled the psychic, you can't escape the human factor of wishful thinking. I can just speak for myself, having ignored the visions and guidance of my spirit guides over and over again because I desperately desired another outcome. (This of course ties into the debate between fate and free will, which I'll leave for a later post.) So yes, it's quite possible to read for oneself, but keeping the ego separate from your higher good is complicated. I mean, it always is. We all bring these delusions into play in readings. How many times haven't I or any of my colleagues encountered clients who are so deadset on a certain result, that they dismissed our abilities after we've presented them with our visions and recommendations from their guides. It's all so human, and that's ok.

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feminismPosted by Arandjel Wed, January 24, 2018 22:15:56
“People who are placed on pedestals are expected to pose, perfectly. Then they get knocked off when they fuck it up.”
― Roxane Gay, Bad Feminist: Essays

I suppose I could've just as well posted this under "life" or any other category, but I chose "feminism". Being a feminist myself, and also having "discovered" Roxane Gay recently (she's a very famous), I thought the quote captured my reaction to a video I recently saw. I was perusing YouTube the other day (which I'm addicted to), where I came across a documentary on Baba Vanga, one of the most celebrated psychics in the world. My heart dropped when she in the second part of it says that men as infallible and every woman is a "slut" (her words). Paradoxically she goes on telling a story about a male client who was a womanizer, but a good man. ?!?! To see what I'm writing about, copy and paste, with these inflammatory comments featured at the very beginning of it.

It makes me sad to see women tear each other down in this way, in particular people who purport themselves to be spiritually aware. Ironically, she was almost banned from the church she funded because the pristest considered her a witch and embarrassment. Now, I do understand that Baba Vanga, who was born in 1911 to poor farmers, lacks our current perspective on equality, but I was hoping it would've been somewhat compensated by her connection to the divine. Alas no. In the clip, you also see her working, which considering her reputation, is slightly disappointing. Well, not really, as the documentary covers her final days, so of course she wasn't at the top of her game. There is an earlier documentary, from 1976, titled ФЕНОМЕН (FENOMEN), which unfortunately is in Bulgarian and without subtitles. The full film is available at, if anybody speaks Bulgarian.

The later portrayal has left me a bit torn and sad. I don't expect people to be perfect by any means, and I know how complicated psychic work can be, but perhaps I've placed Baba Vanga on a pedestal. I've read and heard so many fantastical stories about her, that seeing her talk about women this way was a bit devastating. If she really had this view of women, I wonder how she related to her female clients. Allegedly, she accurately - albeit morosely - predicted the death of the very popular Yugoslavian artist, Silvana Armenulic. Silvana was apparently a huge believer, and was understandably quite shaken after the consultation. How much that impacted her demise is hard to say, but I (like most people, it seems) know very little of Baba Vanga's actual body of work to make some grand conclusion about her mistreating women because of internalized misogyny. Sometimes it's perhaps better to leave things alone. Pedestals are indeed a problem.

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Psychic - not omniscient

psychicPosted by Arandjel Mon, January 22, 2018 05:20:11
There is a misconception about psychics that we know everything. We don't. Despite dubious advertising by some of us, portraying themselves as demigods, we are just people like anybody else. Being psychic simply means a heightened emotional awareness (I'll delve deeper into this topic in another post). The sixth sense is also something we tap in to, not a state that we're constantly in. Speaking for myself, I can be rather clueless in my regular life. Or I used to be more so back in the days. With training and experience, the psychic part has become a much more integrated part of my reality, where I easier notice energies or hear angelic advice. That doesn't translate into me being all-knowing, nor that I always listen to whatever information comes to me. I make mistakes, like most people. So the premise that psychics are pre-eminently divine is flawed, as all living beings are godly. Unfortunately, that assumption, cemented as it is in popular culture, brings about plenty of confusion and disappointment. Clients sometimes have really distorted expectations on readings and science won't take us seriously. So the meme below, which is used to make light of psychics, is rather unfunny, if people actually knew the difference between the words psychic and omniscient.

When it comes to clients, it's important to mention that not all psychics are for all people. Every client is different with their own set of needs and wants. Recommendations are therefore risky: the energies might not match, the psychic could have a bad day etc. Hopefully there's an ethical business model in place, to reimburse the client if a reading goes awry. In the capacity of being a client myself, I've had less accurate readings by famous psychics and great ones by lesser known counterparts. But then again, my personal conviction is to refrain from having too many readings: I'd say no more than a couple a year.

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More on meditation

meditationPosted by Arandjel Sun, January 21, 2018 00:25:01
Thinking through yesterday's post, I realized I probably left a few points out. My reference to the Scientific American issue on meditation wasn't to imply that science somehow has the final word for me. But science is important to me, despite it often being dogmatic and hostile towards spirituality. The other day, I had a scientist ask me to persuade them of my abilities, to which my response was that I'm not a cult. Back in the days, this kind of request would've infuriated me, but now it's just amusing. To me science and spirituality aren't antagonists, but rather holistically allies. My personal approach is to have an open but critical mind, which is a bit oxymoronic, I know.

But this isn't really what I left out. I was going to recommend a meditation journal, to document impressions - whatever they might be. It doesn't have to be written down, drawing works just as well. The are no rules for how to express yourself - grab a box of crayons and go wild! Also, leave expectations for what a meditation should be at the door. My personal experience is that every session is different. Some days 30 minutes feels like an eternity and others I do twice that. There is no need to pressure yourself through a session. Yes, it's good to be disciplined, but there are days when you're simply not in the mood - and that's important to acknowledge. With that said, I generally think five minutes is too short for a meditation, so try to do at least 10 minutes initially. If you're going rogue - not guided, don't come down on yourself if you're unable to quiet down the mind. Depending on your day, the meditation can be used to sort those thoughts out in a tranquil environment. Or pray. It's a sacred moment, so savor it.

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The mystery of meditation

meditationPosted by Arandjel Sat, January 20, 2018 06:01:22
I tend to get a lot of questions regarding meditation. People approach me, usually with the best intentions, wondering how to get started and how it will never work for them, claiming their minds being to unruly to tame. Unrealistic expectations is what is at play here, as meditation, like most things in life, is a matter of discipline and exercise. I certainly didn't start off sitting in silence for 30 mins right away, but built up to it in 5 minute increments over time. But it's easy to get the impression, since meditation is the current buzzword and touted as the cure for all ills, that it's a piece of cake. Well, it isn't, and I know a few of the foremost mediums in the world who don't like to meditate. Also one should be realistic of what meditation can achieve. The outlandish claims I sometimes read in spiritual publications are both laughable and concerning. Scientific American had a great issue out a couple of years on the documented benefits of meditation.

In addition, there is so many variations on meditations, it can be difficult to know where to start. I usually recommend guided meditations for novices. There's a plethora of them on Youtube and Spotify. Many of them are aimed towards psychic and mediumship development. If I were to recommend one for budding mediums, I'd pick this one by Linda Hopkins (even though it's long, but one can easily lay down while listening to it):

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2018! :O

psychicPosted by Arandjel Wed, January 17, 2018 05:58:43
I can't believe I haven't posted anything since April. I'm not sure where the time went, but here I am a year later. It's like I stepped into a time warp. Or maybe not. Beyond the superficial blur of the mind, major changes have slowly crystallized. They still are, it's an ongoing process. Some of those crystals can be quite pokey. But they've reminded me of my love of writing. So I'll try to devote more time to it, making it a dedicated practice. Let's see how it goes. I'm not drawing a tarot card for it, though.

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Tarotscopes - Spring 2017

tarotscopePosted by Arandjel Thu, April 06, 2017 16:23:45

ARIES (March 21-April 19) Tarot card: King of Swords Spring is definitely your season, for all the obvious reasons. This card heralds major changes in your life, a well-needed improvement. Discord at work will be solved, either by straightforward communication or a career change. Cutting ties with whatever has been holding you down is suggested, so why not go after those dreams of yours? Be brave! The same goes for your love life.

TAURUS (April 20-May 20) Tarot card: Ten of Swords Sometimes even the best laid plans go awry, but at some point you have to dust yourself off and try again. And again. Your sign is innately bullheaded (pun intended), so you might benefit from some wise advice from a friend or a colleague. Pains in your joints or back could be alleviated by yoga or Pilates - just remember to listen to your body. Meditate more!

GEMINI (May 21-June 20) Tarot card: King of Pentacles Things have been running smoothly lately, and will stay the same. However, the status quo - even this positive one, can make you feel restless. The twin sign possesses double the energy, which needs to be released. An extra job could bring in some additional income, plus be rewarding spiritually. Treat yourself and your loved one to a trip, preferably abroad.

CANCER (June 20-July 23) Tarot card: Five of Pentacles Have your finances been in disarray recently? Making impulse purchases is the bane to the Cancerian existence. It comes with moodiness of the usually very frugal sign. Instead of hitting the (online) shops when life feels hopeless, invest that time in volunteering and helping others. Your body might be prone to catching a nasty spring cold, so take good care of yourself.

LEO (July 23-August 22) Tarot card: Justice It’s time to seal the deal, dear Leo! Make yourself available for that promotion, buy that house or propose marriage to the love of your life. This is certainly not the season to do things half-heartedly, but to direct that go-getter ambition of yours at achieving the most fantastical goals. If you’ve considered relocating, then the time is now. Singles will be lucky with online dating.

VIRGO (August 22-September 23) Tarot card: The High Priestess It doesn’t always pay off to take the high road, but it sure provides a peace of mind. Keep staying out of office politics, and you’ll prosper spiritually. Your coworkers will recognize you as a person of quality, which will boost your career in ways you didn’t think possible. Just make sure to set aside some alone time, as you’re prone to burning yourself out.

LIBRA (September 23-October 22) Tarot card: Three of Cups Beautiful things happen to beautiful people. In your case this season will be a celebration on all fronts, or at least a couple of them. Your romantic life will seem to run smoother than usual, while at work, some new ideas you have will be accepted enthusiastically. Victory belongs to those who collaborate, which will be an important part of your success.

SCORPIO (October 23-November 21) Tarot card: The Magician Love is the air! The spring brings new beginnings and lustful liaisons, which is a bit of a trademark of your sign. Don’t be shy, but indulge in those passionate encounters: who knows what they might lead to… If you play the lottery or enjoy the occasional gamble at a casino, Lady Luck is there for you. Sports competitions is another area you could excel in.

SAGITTARIUS (November 22-December 21) Tarot card: Ten of Wands There is a sense that you’ve been taking on too much responsibility lately, which really goes against your free spirited nature. Instead of being happy about your recent success, it feels more like a burden, and you’re ready to run away. Escaping won’t solve anything, but delegating will. Treat yourself to some relaxing massage, and allow yourself to spend a day in bed.

CAPRICORN (December 22-January 19) Tarot card: Eight of Wands Theodore Roosevelt once said that it’s “[f]ar better [...] to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure”. You have been putting things off in your life because of fear of failure and loss of control. Dare to step outside your little box of everyday routines: there’s a whole wide world ready to be explored!

AQUARIUS (January 20-February 18) Tarot card: Two of Cups Slow and steady wins the race: your contemplative nature is of great help to anybody close to you. In the big scheme of things, life is running pretty smoothly at the moment. There might be some issues related to filing paperwork, which might require some assistance. Another area that could be improved is your diet, as a vitamin deficiency is possible.

PISCES (February 19-March 20) Tarot card: Temperance You’ve been feeling particularly blessed recently, as a result of your guardian angels working in harmony with your life expectations. Your psychic sense has been and will be heightened during this period, so trust the messages you receive. A pay rise is in the works, while on a personal level, minor discords are solved with constructive communication. As for health, refrain from overindulging.

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